Happy Birthday, Re-Launch, Love & Hate

Let me first pause to wish myself a Happy Birthday…I moped about for the first half of my day, wishing that the clock would stop taunting me…[but then] I realized: this was a GREAT birthday!…I had rediscovered my talents, buried deep inside of me from childhood, and chose to stop denying my true identity, my mission in life…I had to smile. How many people hadn’t made it this far?” ~ Jasmine

“Getting RANDOM messages, e-mails, and IMs from people I haven’t heard from in MONTHS of struggling has been hilarious. I mean, out of the blue, people choose NOW during our Re-Launch to contact me, and shower me with “you need to quit, your business and ideals have tanked, i think you should do this” speeches…It’s not MY fault if someone else chooses not to strive for success. I refuse to limit myself simply to ease their pain.” ~ Jamal

Jamal: Hey wus up? I’m here wrapping up the final stages of our re-launch with Un World. This feels like the 80th time around, but in reality this is the 2nd Re-Build I’ve gone through with our business. The 1st one felt horrible, it was back in 2005, and just at the moment when my personal success was growing at a rapid pace…BOOM! I got hit with poor team members, that I paired with weak management, so everything naturally fell to pieces. From people skipping tour dates, to missed deadlines for artwork, to projects being left half-assed complete, it was a nightmare that I allowed to play out for too long.

Maybe being a little more “selfish” in terms of not being blindly-altruistic might have served me well. So… we fast forward to 2008, and I put all of myself on the line again. With the birth of my first child, I went into desperation mode in my business life. All the anxiety of being a good father and being able to provide for my family just led me to “grabbing at whatever I could”. I stopped THINKING for a second, and all it takes is a second to be manipulated and ‘grinded’ by a client.

So in any event, this client (supposed partner) grinded out our services, was consistently late on payments, and would routinely ask for just “one more” additional service to get our necessary LATE PAYMENTS, lol. This went on and on, until my family is suffering, Un World is suffering, and we’ve run our Cash Flow into the ground. I call that “hanging on and praying that things will change without action”. It’s a fairly stupid strategy that I sadly engaged in. This time it hurt REALLY bad b/c I have a wife and daughter at this point.

So… it’s the latter part of 2008, and Un World has once again gone through a Re-Build. This time around we have STRICT guidelines, rules, and operations guides in place to govern our activity. We’ve been burnt in the past, and it can not happen again. Our lives depend on our success, so failure is simply not an option. I guess self-preservation kicked in a few months ago and whipped my ass back into shape. And possibly some of the embarrassment and shame I’ve showered myself with has done the trick too.

Well, I love my family, and love our Mission, and love Un World. The funny thing is literally the DAYS counting down to our official Re-Launch have been filled with Hate from outsiders. I mean “Family Members”… I’ll call them relatives b/c my true Family supports and actually helps me out. Getting RANDOM messages, e-mails, and IMs from people I haven’t heard from in MONTHS of struggling has been hilarious. I mean, out of the blue, people choose NOW during our Re-Launch to contact me, and shower me with “you need to quit, your business and ideals have tanked, i think you should do this” speeches. It’s amazing how timing works out. These people were nowhere to be found while my family and I were struggling the most. Only my most cherished relatives remained here to support. But NOW, when our website and Show is back up and ready to be published again, these people just “pop up” and say we should QUIT, lol. Well… I say “FUK YOU!” to them, because they do NOT have my best interests at heart, they simply need to see me & my family MARGINALIZED to better suit their own Selfish Egos.

So I say this to the Haters… “If you want to be ‘numero uno’ y the ‘top dog’, go EARN it cous! I’m going for the top echelon of success, so you WILL be beneath me if YOU choose to be lazy and unimaginative in your problem solving.”

It’s not MY fault if someone else chooses not to strive for success. I refuse to limit myself simply to “ease their pain”.

Well, that’s all I have for now. I’ll holla back at you later. 3s Up.

Jasmine: Observing the importance of this day, let me first pause to wish myself a Happy Birthday. Unlike most, I did not want much. Just a laid back, relaxing day with my family, maybe a little breakfast in bed, homemade coupon for a back rub; that type of thing. Instead, what I got was a rude awakening from my infant daughter, who deemed it necessary to be held and entertained at sunrise, and an exhausted husband who, despite having to be to work, didn’t even hear the alarm go off, let alone, have a grand plan to surprise me with pancakes. I moped about for the first half of my day, wishing that the clock would stop taunting me, until something happened.

As I watched my daughter’s manic howling transform into a wide, dimpled grin upon being cuddled, I realized: this was a GREAT birthday! I had actually made it through another year, committed myself to the love of my life, birthed a beautiful little angel, and overall improved my outlook on life– all since my last birthday! I had literally decided to go against everything in my past that told me I was not destined for greatness. I had altered my thinking, my daily actions, and, ultimately, my destiny. I had gained the strength and courage to go “against the grain”, and stand up for my beliefs, rather than succumb to the monotony of an unfulfilled life. I had rediscovered my talents, buried deep inside of me from childhood, and chose to stop denying my true identity, my mission in life.

And now, as I stood in the middle of a bedroom littered with miniature socks, toys, an overflowing laundry bin, and miscellaneous gadgets, disks, and business books, I had to smile. How many people hadn’t made it this far?

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